I want to remember this time in my life exactly as it is now. Literally every day I wake up, I can live my dreams; having all the time in the world to meet with friends, practice yoga or go for a 3hour hike. My only obligations are to LEARN and critically analyze the world around me. This will probably be the most selfish time in my existence; I have no one else to report to, only myself to please and placate. I am still unburdened by ‘adulthood’ in a financial sense—not totally, but practically—lets just say ‘I can still call my mom for the health card when I go to acupuncture’ kind of thing. I can casually drink 3-4 nights a week, judgment suspended from all parties—therapist excluded. I can attend documentaries about ‘cultures of resistance’ and get credit for it. I can blow off eager beavers or feel like my existence is a joke when the ‘unattainable’ ones do what they do best. Wonderful women who are exploring the expression of their femininity in this polarized world surround me and I am consistently amazed and inspired by their unremitting resilience. We all get bogged down, stressed out, stood up, and stuck—but mold from experience and keep growing, writing our story with each thought. What a blessing this is and how grateful I am to be immersed in an environment, pulsating with possibilities of the future: of change, heartache, succession, resistance, upheaval, creation, destruction and autonomy through interdependent connection.
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