Showing posts with label society. Show all posts
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Monday, November 24, 2014

Start Where You Are


Graciela Sacco, Cuerpo a Cuerpo, 2001. Heliography on found wood.


I find myself swimming
In an infinity pool—
logging the miles
for some outside demand.

Is this life? Just a series
of punch-ins-punch-outs-
happyhours-and-feelings
oftimelost?

I did it: I got a great place to live, great roommates; a job in my field that is challenging and constantly expanding my skillset; a city I’ve come to know and love that surprises me with her hidden gems; a fellow social-justice aficionado boyfriend who tells me I’m a goddess and refills my jameson without pause. I make enough money to be comfortable, but still tight enough to feel like a ‘struggling (I don’t want to say artist).’ Still on my parents health insurance. Fucking killing it, right?

Then why
am I choking
on tar,
impending doom?

‘You’re wasting time,
You’re stagnant.
You’re not peterpan.
grow up.’

 ‘a single moment is all we need to establish our human will and attain truth.’

fuck yeah
you can change everything in a moment!
But what  about sustainability?
Fucking zen masters—cherry blossoms in a blizzard.

‘DO MORE!’
she says--How guilt-ridden and pathetic,
negating the real truth
that I was born whole

and that nondoing
is a more powerful currency
than any form of accomplishment
in this society built on objectification.

I cherish those moments late at night before I get off my swing shift when I zip up my raincoat and meander outside to breathe fresh air. I watch people utilizing their street-skills—charisma to snag a pull on the bottle; resourcefulness to pick up half-smoked cigarette off the concrete; audacity to snag someone’s tarp from their neatly stacked pile to secure their own survival.

We have moments of pure truth and understanding.
They tell me of their home planets,
That justice will be served for WWII,
That Jesus is coming.

I glimpse into their world and it all makes sense.
These homeless angels are crippled by their ability to feel
—pain, suffering, prejudice, and institutionalized oppression.
The rest of us numb in heated homes with ‘could-be-better’ wages and expensive hobbies.

It doesn’t add up. The people doing all the work
—the cooking, cleaning, building, nurturing, counseling, advocating, caretaking—
get fucked by the system. What an exhausting insight to behold—breathing new definitions.
Social Work: the art of balancing self-preserving ignorance while kindling fire for change.

With this awareness, I too feel crippled by the depth of corruption
Crippled by the paradox of change-within and change-without.
The yogis say to ‘make yourself whole,’
—how can one integrate when surrounded by souls swept out to sea by tides outside their control?

‘Our human body appears and disappears moment by moment, without cease, and this ceaseless arising and passing away is what we experience as time and being. They are not separate, they are one thing, and in even a fraction of a second, we have the opportunity to choose and to turn the course of our action either towards the attainment of truth or away from it. Each instant it utterly critical to the whole world.’

Paralysis by questions of purpose
direction, and intent—a diagnosis met by many aficionados before me.
The answer is there is no answer.
The fact is we are all alone—

single islands of consciousness
in this vast illusion of import.
The only meaning we can glean
are the stories we tell ourselves of ‘truth.’

Sometimes I drink chardonnay in the afternoon like my mother and sisters before me and gaze over the precipice, contemplating the time it would take me to fall and the feeling of inertia and gravity and time suspended. Even for a short while…

Sometimes I sit by the window like my jade bonsai, phototropic, growing towards the light in the shade of doug-firs during my 15 minute meditations and I feel like ‘I got this, I am whole.’

up, down, same thing. 


*The quotes in italics are taken from the character Jiko, a 104 year-old zen buddhist/feminist nun in the book A Tale for the Time Being by Ruth Ozeki


Saturday, November 16, 2013

Illusory Cheddar

euo:

Andrew B Myers
Flying over the Missoula valley, its golden belly punctured by the frosted Bitterroot mountains, a hum of familiarity rose up within me. After over 30 hours of jumping from airport to airport, paroosing the same magazine stalls and munching the same bland breakfast burritos—from Mumbai to Newark to Denver to Montucky— I was officially home.
            Upon exiting the plane, I was enveloped with that ever-familiar brisk mountain air. It filled my lungs harshly, as if the atmosphere could foreshadow the social adjustment to come. I waiting at baggage claim, in Chacos with mehndied toes and a tribal throw from the Nilgiris bundled across my shoulders, praying that my backpack caught all of its legs from the journey. Pack and mangled goat-leather carry-on in hand, I slowly exited the airport, half-expecting my girlfriends to run up to me, shrieking and giddy, champagne in hand. Instead I watched a young family greet their father, a rogue college student hail a cab, and an elderly couple cart suitcases towards their Subaru. I shivered and passed back through the automatic doors, finding a seat inside next to a Big Horn Sheep, fresh from taxidermy. 
            I will admit, it was an anti-climactic arrival home. I patiently waited, observing my surroundings with foreign eyes, overwhelmed with the recurring thought, “this is it. I am home. India is over.” It didn’t stick; it felt like a dream. I am sure most people can attest to this— the feeling of emptiness after you pour yourself into a grand plan, quiet and mounting as falling snow. For months prior to my journey, all that was on my mind was graduation and India. Quite frankly, given the tasks at hand that accompany graduating college a year early, and traveling around to a developing country for 6 months, if I did plan beyond that, I wouldn’t have made it. Self-imposed myopia was my saving grace.
I have been conditioned my whole life to plan, plan, plan. Because whatever cultural script running in our young brains tells us that to have a plan is to have success. We should always be yearning for that higher branch, the better bite, the most impressive lens. Like ropes these expectations constrict themselves around our psyche— from the moment we understand the concept of the self, we are already envisioning how we can morph it to fit into societal ideas of ‘the good.’
As kids, we devour any and every cultural message we can get our hands on, internalizing Manichean representations of the world: good and evil, fat and skinny, liberal and conservative, smart and dumb, right and wrong. In turn, we start to categorize ourselves in relation to this ‘Hollywood’ milieu; the sad thing is that our culture grossly promotes unachievable ideals, which children and young adults will never be able to live up to. And so an entire generation checks themselves into the box that says, ‘I will never be enough.’
            And so we make plans, we set goals, we bite, bite, bite for that illusory cheddar, programming ourselves out of today in search of a glamorous tomorrow. Perhaps we don’t bite our nails; we run five miles at 6am every day; we don’t have that 4th gin and tonic and have sloppy sex with a stranger; we drive an Audi and decline cheese products with ease. Whatever your platter of insecurities, in this vision of tomorrow you are a better, more desirable person—a worthy person.
            I believe this doctrine of insufficiency to be the nascence of quotidian neurosis in my country. In India, I had to lie to rest this optimal version of ‘Kendall’ and rewire my brain to be content with and also appreciate my present. In surrendering, it was as if two decades of pressure released from my mental shoulders. I became more loving and patient with myself and with others. I recognized the blessing and opportunity in every encounter, however frustrating and menial. Most of all, I learned to listen to myself—to conjure the silence in my soul and open the space for self-exploration and growth.
            “Kenny Strauts!” Katie yelled from her dilapidated red sedan, dubbed ‘Diane.’ Jess jumped out of the passenger seat with pastel balloons as I hobbled with baggage across the street to meet them. We embraced with the ease of friends who’ve abandoned disclaimers in the wake of college drinking antics and went straight to shooting the shit.   
            “So, Jesus Christ girl,” Katie remarked as she manually rolled down her window and lit a cigarette, “you’re back.”
            “I know,” I smirked and nodded, “it’s fuckin nuts.”
            And that is the feeling I had all evening as we shared stories over box-chardonnay and bowls, lamenting over how much we missed each other. I retraced my steps, my belongings—where I left my life 6 months ago, neatly packed in soccer bags and hat boxes. I ceremoniously donned a familiar pair of tights with a statement necklace and hopped on the bus downtown. It was as if I had never left.
            We strolled into our usual watering hole, sat down at our usual table, and ordered our usual drinks. I made a toast to reuniting with my two favorite ladies; they repeatedly welcomed me back. I was truly grateful to be in their presence again. It is funny, how you long for something while you are alone and abroad. At times, there was nothing I wanted more than to just spit-silly-profane-nonsense with these girls over whiskey drinks in a crowded bar—where we pretend the door to the smoking lounge is a veritable catwalk fit for judging other ladies’ attire and/or possible men to bone.
They bear witness to my 20s-hot-mess state and ask no questions. This support network, however flawed and filled with too many substances, is what I craved when I was at my depths in India. Because it is the ultimate comfort— to be out with your friends who will have your back no matter what ill-thought-out rabbit hole you choose to plunge down. So this is was the solidarity I envisioned coming home to.
            “Kendall, you’ve really gotta stop fucking around,” Katie interrupted my welling nostalgia as she clicked a selfie whilst sipping a cucumber marg, “and get snap-chat already.”
            I rolled my eyes in the stench of déjà vu and irony. We had done this merry-go-round many times— her enthusiasm always met with my adamancy to never join another social media cult. My relationship to the twittersphere is the usual love-hate-mesmerized-obsession as my 20-something contemporaries.
I feel like it is an essential part of operating in society in this day and age, while at the same time I lament its alluring velvet vortex—where responding to an email can turn into ‘gypsy-blog-envy’ spirals or morally condemning every female which shows up on your ex’s ‘new friend’ FB scroll. Before I left for India, I had a (in the words of my father) ‘come to Jesus’ moment in which I concluded that Facebook is nothing but a source of negative energy and therefore, vehemently deleted it (Malbec in hand).
            It literally felt like mental shackles had been lifted from my brain; I had unplugged from the matrix. Creating that space made me realize what a toxic crutch facebook is for me—that I have to ‘upkeep’ this Internet version of myself. And in doing so, either radically boost my self-esteem via ‘likes’ or condemn my being due to a wrongly filtered photo without a ‘skinny arm’ pose. I am recognizing ever more how social media fragments my existence and my understanding of myself in the world.  
Back at the ever-lively Tamarac Brewing Company, I was glowing, thankful to be in a setting where I could merely blend in, the music, the language, the clothing, the whole vibe—I was certainly no longer an outsider. But in the strangest sense, I felt like a new anthropologist on assignment. I was observing my surroundings with keen eyes, highlighting cultural nuances with my Indian programmed psyche. Overwhelmed with the social dynamics of a place where most individuals present were born with every luxury, it was hard to reconcile the fact that two, so completely different social biomes could exist on the same planet. And I checked my watch, imagining what my dear friends Devi, or Rishi, or Selma were doing at this very moment and how they would react to this alien realm of privilege and facade.
It was at that moment, in my spliced cultural state, that I realized how tuned out my companions were. After the initial cheers and ‘OMG, I miiiisssed you!’s, everyone unlocked their iphones and plugged into the matrix with feverish intensity, as if every second they were missing an opportunity to document a faux pas of extraordinary proportion.
No one was present at the table; they were plugged in. My mind wandered to bonding with my Indian girlfriends, whom were all ears and eyes and handholding when we were together. When I sat silently at a train stop waiting for the ‘Loco to Chennai Central,’ I did just that—sat silently and waiting. I didn’t fill the space with music, or photo streams, or digital scrabble.
That night at the Tamarac felt anything but genuine compared to my interactions with friends in a (developing, mind you) country unpolluted by selfies and statuses and check-ins’s— Oh My! I can’t help but wonder what this constant buzz, this unremitting influx of advertising, relationship critiquing, and societal messaging is doing for our psyche. What kind of illusory connectivity are these ‘networks’ building? Was I witnessing the truth of Western solidarity in friendships—expressed through snapchats, and FB likes, and tags instead of face-to-face investment?
After a month or so in India, I reactivated my Facebook, obviously to spy on my friends and family whom I missed so much. But there, it wasn’t so much of a problem because there were a limited number of times when I had access to internet or Wi-Fi. When I could, I scrolled, typed, liked, tweeted, grammed to my heart’s desires, but then I would leave the internet café and be done with it. My realm of real-life and social media were kept separate, with the virtual world encompassing a miniscule part of my day-to-day thought patterns and interactions. This was manageable for me, and I enjoyed it.
The difference of being back here is the extent of connectivity. Literally everywhere you go, you can be plugged in. With Wi-Fi practically being a rudiment to any thriving public (and private) space, why wouldn’t you want the latest updates? It seems the line between real and simulated social interaction is blurred immensely; many of my generation are so consumed with their online avatars that they literally end up viewing their lives through the filters on their instagrams instead of experiencing some truly awesome memories in their raw, coherent state.
It is clear that a new age has dawned with a whole generation growing up on iphones and macbooks. I am extremely curious as to how psychological research is responding to such societal changes. Whether you call it a smartphone addiction, social media angst, FOMO (fear of missing out), mobophobia, the like thereof—we have to admit there is something seriously going on. Allow me to spit off some stats.
According to Psychology Today, on average Americans check their smartphones for messages 150 times a day—that’s about once every six and a half minutes. Based on Digital Insights data, Facebook has 1.15 billion registered users— mind you that is over 1/7th the population on the entire planet— with 23% of that 1.15 billion who check their account at least 5 times per day.
Daniel Sarewitz, in an op-ed from The Oregonian, gives some riveting opinions,
“So what if your attention span has been fragmented into nanoseconds, if you measure your social life by Facebook friends, your professional worth by Google hits, and the worst words you can imagine are “airplane mode”? We are all one-marshmallow OCD narcissists, granted by our devices the magic of comprehensive instant gratification, of self-reinforcing worldviews, of control over the daily minutia of our fates and fortunes. To not be irrevocably addicted to our smartphones would be senseless.”

Okay so we admit it, we are all logged in all the time. Why—because we can! But how does this affect us psychologically? A 2012 study published in the journal Cyberpsychology, Behavior, and Social Networking, for example, found that the longer people spent on Facebook each week, the more they agreed that everyone else was happier and had better lives. Clinical Psychologist Craig Malkin described similar observations in an interview with NPR, commenting that the incessant consumption of projected and idealized images from social media results in rampant envy, social distress, hinders self-understanding and forecloses real-life intimacy.
It is well known that social media provides us with is a false sense of community. Even Abraham Maslow included ‘belongingness’ in his (ever-holy) hierarchy of needs, among the instinct for food, shelter, and self-actualization. Pre-google-circles, we satisfied this need through kin-networks—close friends and family in our immediate existence whom we would get personal acceptance feedback from in everyday life. The Internet has expanded this realm of feedback to infinite bounds, such that our brain feels the need to retain acceptance in the same style of Hollywood stars and highschool classmates who you never liked but ‘made it big.’ If you don’t have their sprawl of following and attention splattered across your feed, the message is, once again, ‘you are worthless.’
Theodore Roosevelt once said: “comparison is the thief of joy.” I couldn’t agree more that what is most damaging about social media is in fact its very purpose: to peek in on others’ lives. While the intention may be ‘staying in touch,’ one can’t help but internalize those images of perfection or perhaps a lack of ‘following’, even if underneath we know that no one is unblemished and airwave fanbases are superficial. 
Elliot Panek, of the Universit of Michigan, says of Facebook, "It's about curating your own image, how you are seen, and also checking on how others respond to this image. Middle-aged adults usually have already formed their social selves,” while the y-generation looks to this media for answers about ‘who we’re supposed to be.’ Perhaps my generation is more vulnerable to the dark side of social media, seeing as we are not fully formed humans.
Carl Rogers is one of my favorite psychologists—a humanist who believed that a fully functioning being had to have a coherent sense of self. He believed that all suffering and neurosis was a result of the gap between our actual selves, flaws and all, and the ‘self’ we wish we were, our perceived self. The key to content and fulfillment in life, according to Rogers, is addressing the whole landscape— thorns and all— and showering what you encounter with radical self-acceptance.
Personally, I have found this technique of, what I call, ‘loving your uglies,’ to be extremely transformative. But the catch here, is that you need the gift of age and hindsight to fully explore the dimensions of these multiple self-concepts we brew up. I fear that social media engenders the creation of selves beyond Mr. Roger’s dichotomy, which is tough enough to navigate alone.
Back to Panek’s comments: "social networking in general allows the user a great deal of control over how he or she is presented to and perceived by peers and other users,” ever-widening the gap between the real and perceived self. Malkin also argued that young individuals who get into the habit of always ‘touching-up’ their image, hiding their flaws, may develop a reticence towards intimate relationships with others and themselves. If we are constantly refraining from acknowledging our vulnerabilities, our humanness, how can we ever grow into a flourishing, whole human?
I was very quiet the first few weeks home. My internal dialogue-cogs were incessantly grinding as I observed those around me— the way they approached life, problems, desires, needs. I have been wrestling with multiple selves for a long time. During my self-exploration in India, there were delicate layers of my Americanness that I shed, which I wasn’t made aware of until I came home and had the urge to put those covers on again. So with each day I confront engrained neurosis, at times feeling like a conditioned rat pulling the lever in response to the pressures of society. And so it is my task to unburden each reflex through that every-god-damn-day self-awareness I always talk about. Starting with monitoring (and stopping) my interaction with the social media realm.
As of now, the jury is still out on whether or not my reunion with my beloved Mac is a blessing or a curse for my spiritual wellbeing. The most I can do is acknowledge this presence and, as with everything, it will be enmeshed in my lifelong sojourn to find that alluring notion of balance.
One of my favorite quotes from Mr. Emerson goes something like this: ne te quaesiveris extra—translation— do not seek yourself outside yourself. When I look to others for approval, or for comparison on how I should be living, I will only recreate an inauthentic vision of what my life ‘should’ be instead of simply glorifying what it ‘is.’ 

Photo-cred--Dust lookbook
                      

Sunday, May 12, 2013

A little advice from Ed Abbey


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Do not burn yourself out. Be as I am-a reluctant enthusiast... a part time crusader, a half-hearted fanatic. Save the other half of yourselves and your lives for pleasure and adventure. It is not enough to fight for the land; it is even more important to enjoy it. While you can. While it is still there. So get out there and mess around with your friends, ramble out yonder and explore the forests, encounter the grizz, climb the mountains. Run the rivers, breathe deep of that yet sweet and lucid air, sit quietly for a while and contemplate the precious stillness, that lovely, mysterious and awesome space. Enjoy yourselves, keep your brain in your head and your head firmly attached to your body, the body active and alive, and I promise you this much: I promise you this one sweet victory over our enemies, over those deskbound people with their hearts in a safe deposit box and their eyes hypnotized by desk calculators. I promise you this: you will outlive the bastards.

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Nature & Society--A Final Learning Synthesis

 
           
I just recently returned from a trip to Jackson Hole, WY—a place not unlike scenic Missoula, filled with outdoor enthusiasts, proud dog owners, and beer connoisseurs. In an effort to spark inspiration for this paper, a final learning synthesis, I inquired with individuals whom I encountered as to their choice in living locale. I was greeted with an almost unanimous answer— “uhhh, have you looked around,” pause for a smile or a swig; “the nature here man, I tell you it’s where the magic happens.” The environment of Teton County truly is magical— moose troll around your backyard in the shadow of insurmountable jagged peaks, while national forests, parks, and private preserves border the township. Yet what makes places like Jackson Hole so special is the vibe in which its inhabitants connect with raw nature.  
            On my drive back up to Montana, I was contemplating the similarities between Missoula and Jackson—the folk are likeminded and wilderness abundant. However, the most salient similarity I found was the deep connection people feel to the environment in which they live. Coming from Colorado, I have always defined myself as a mountain girl—there is something about the safety of deep river valleys nestled between rugged peaks that gets under your bones.  Perhaps it is the crisp air, or the fresh headwaters; maybe it’s the infinite trails less traveled or the encounters with forest creatures, going about their lives in no rush above 12,000 feet. Spending a smidgen of time in nature enlightens you as to its true intrinsic value.
            It wasn’t until I traveled a bit, poked my head around, that I recognize what a blessing my ‘home’ has been in the formation of my ecological worldview. I have always lived in a place where wilderness is accessible and life laid back. It is only through recurring jolts of historical contextualization and bare-bones reality checks that I can acknowledge the extent of my multifaceted privilege. I interact with my surroundings with a new consciousness, one laden with socio-historical breadth and geopolitical depth. And as I have found with many intellectual endeavors, once the pot is stirred, questions of contradiction arise: how is it possible that so many individuals, myself included, adulate their natural surroundings also participate daily in a system that is destroying the very object of their ardor?
            The drawing of these parallels, adjacent tangents from the relationship between nature and society were etched in a darker shade after exploring ‘the explaining story,’ as laid out in Professor Spencer’s course, instigated with the intriguing novel, Ishmael, by Daniel Quinn. The book Ishmael provided a framework of key terms and ideas to siphon through the convolutions of history, philosophy, religion, and science flushed out through the semester. Ishmael poses many critical questions whose nascence lies in the labyrinth of environmental thought and action. And while the depth of this tale will not be given due course within the confines of this essay, I will seek to identify the key turning points in Euro-American history that led us to our current ideological and behavioral setting. While contemplating and elaborating on the historical bricks laid in the path to our modern Western paradigm, for the sake of brevity I will fast-forward through thousands of years of humanities’ dynamic relationship with nature and focus on paramount shifts.
. Many revolutions mark the history of our species: Neolithic, urban, industrial, technological, globalizing, etc. What they all have in common is their ecological complexity that can be viewed through the sociological acronym, POET, which stands for population, organization, environment, and technology (Palen 76). To use the Neolithic revolution as an example: the technology of food storage allowed for a surplus of food, the surplus in food enabled an increase in population, which created a space for new social and political organization into hierarchal city-states, which all in turn had numerous effects on the environment such as soil degradation and pollution. This model is useful for examining the complexities between nature and society; where advances may occur in one letter may proliferate impediments in another. Such is the paradoxical nature of our world’s current predicament. Many people benefit from the current organizational system ruled by corporate monopolies; technological advances continually raise the bar on desirable living standards; population soars, providing a cheap workforce for the production of more goods for the privileged; the environment and ‘Othered’ individuals, rendered morally obsolete by the powers that be, are heinously exploited.
            Call it philosophy, mythology, religion, or pragmatic reasoning, it is essential to unearth the cerebral nuggets of the aforementioned system, which can be understood as an amalgamation of Judeo-Christian and Enlightenment rhetoric. I have come to understand Christianity as a mélange of Hebrew biblical values and Classical Greek philosophy. While it is difficult in modern times to recognize the extent of Christian influence on our worldview, many key themes persist— particularly those of dominion, transcendence, and dualism. One specific theme from Hebrew texts is the ‘p-story’ of the genesis—in which God entrusted man with the duty of dominating the earth (Genesis 1). This theme was reflected in Ishmael with the myth, “the earth was made for man, and man was made to rule it (Quinn, 61).” The notion of dominion is a prodigious base for our modern Western paradigm and will be examined through a feminist lens later in the essay.
Other contributions the Hebrew religion made to our Western paradigm were notions of monotheism and transcendence. Due to recurring displacement in various environments, the Hebrew people came to see overarching patterns in nature; this was reflected in their belief of a monotheistic god who was transcendent from the natural world. This separation of the ethereal from nature played out in numerous ways, most importantly casting anything reminiscent of the natural world in a pejorative light. Since nature was not of god, it was devalued as a mere instrumental object of satisfaction in the present physical world before eternal rewards in heaven. And due to contributions from Socrates and Aristotle, definitions of nature were expanded to include anything beyond pure reason, such as emotional subjectivity (an obvious micro-insult at feminine comportment), which was conveniently a capacity only possessed by privileged [white] men. Therefore, the mistreatment of animals and ‘beastly’ humans alike was morally legitimized by Judeo-Christian doctrine (Marshall 189).
This separation also inspired another influential ‘split’ as laid out by Descartes cogito, “I think, therefore I am.” Descartes’ fascination with reason finds its roots in the work of Plato, Socrates, and Aristotle. This dualistic mind-frame as reflected by Hebrew notions of transcendence is vital for understanding our Western ‘story’ because it defines humans in terms of the mind, as separate from the body. This step-back, to extol mind over matter so to speak, led to a deleterious logic well-articulated by Metropolitan John of Pergamon, a modern eco-theologian and priest; “Since the human being may be conceived without its relation to the natural world, in the final analysis it matters not at all whether or not the natural world surrounding him will be annihilated,” (Pergamon, 2010).
 Cartisian thought also contributed to the exaltation of objective truths, which brings us to the current arbiter of nature and humanity: science. The idea of an overarching god also segued into early scientific pursuits for absolute laws of nature. Science and technology quickly became the new religion as people sought to become masters and possessors of nature; this was due to the growing consensus that, in the words of Francis Bacon, ‘knowledge is power.’ Note nuances of the dominion story as articulated by the genesis; it was seen as human’s moral duty, “to improve and perfect fallen nature through…science,” (184).
With the advent of science, nature became something to be studied to further manipulate and control resources for the benefit of humans. This utilitarian view of nature is very Aristotelian, who attributed value to nature insofar as it could benefit the flourishing of humans; I daresay many humans would still agree with this statement. And even though Darwin significantly de-centered humans from the main evolutionary stage, notions of man’s superiority and right to ‘dominate,’ remain entrenched. Currently, the scientific paradigm is two-faced; science can be used for further destruction of the earth and each other, or science can realign humans with nature by enlightening us with new information and/or technologies for a sustainable future.
Despite histories’ tendency to bog down students in calamitous ruts, I will shift the focus of this essay towards great American thinkers to whom we owe our unremitting gratitude for cumulatively spearheading any notions of environmentalism. Thinkers such as Ralph Waldo Emerson, and Henry David Thoreau totally reshaped our vision of nature. It was made beautiful again, something to be appreciated, protected, glorified, and revered. One could even go so far to say that without Thoreau, environmentalism would have never emerged with such vigor, for all subsequent environmental students or enthusiasts surely quote his work: Aldo Leopold, Bob Marshall, Rachel Carson and the like made colossal progress to protect, promote, and preserve nature through top-tier interventions. These environmental advocates politicized the degradation of the natural world and put the value of nature at the forefront of generalized discussions of justice.  

            During the decades of consciousness-raising with the American public, as well as with elected officials, an ecological mind-frame emerged. Ecology as described by Nash, “enables [us]…to conceive of nature as an intricate web of interdependent parts, a myriad of cogs and wheels each essential to the health operation of the whole,” (195). This was particularly salient for Aldo Leopold, who took it a step further in extending ecology’s reach to the ethical realm, which this quote fluently encapsulates:

 “One of the penalties of an ecological education is that one lives alone in a world of wounds. Much of the damage inflicted on land is quite invisible to laymen. An ecologist must either harden his shell and make believe that the consequences of science are none of his business, or he must be the doctor who sees the marks of death in a community that believes itself well and does not want to be told otherwise,” (Leopold, A Sand County Almanac).

I currently find myself in that ‘world of wounds,’ as Leopold describes— sifting and melding my personal ecological worldview to balance many tracks of consciousness. While I have a personal affinity for the promotion of social services, books like Ishmael, along with countless other readings from this course, have allowed me to recognize the ecological nature of my actions—that I cannot be concerned with the trials of humans without connecting them to the tribulations of nature. In the words of Peter Marshall, “[the earth] is a living whole,” and in an ever Gestaltian manner I must proclaim that the sum is greater than its individuals parts—that is, holism must be central to the way we identify, define, and approach social and ecological problems alike (Marshall, pgs. 391, 406).

Something to keep in mind while digesting this sweeping panorama of Western ideological history is that humans are a fairly young species in terms of Earth’s history. And although we act, as though our existence on Earth has been the headlining performance of evolutionary bravado, there is hope in humility (Quinn 56-58); we don’t have all of the answers, and there much to learn from the very forces we have been attempting to dominate. As our guest lecturer from BioMimicry Institute, Briony Schwan, related, “everything we need to do [to reverse the damage we have wrought] has already been done in nature,” (5-3-2013).
Thoreau once said, “in wilderness is the preservation of the world,” (Marshall 403). To follow this rumination, I look to nature for a metaphor to encapsulate my idea of what human’s relationship with nature should look like. There is a well-known biological phenomenon in nature called mutual symbiosis; this is a particular type of long-term interdependent relationship can be thought of as a ‘biological barter,’ in which each tradesman behaves as to enhance the well-being of the other. We need to find our mutualistic balance with nature. We need to transform our culture so that people organically act in sustainable ways. Having a little brother has taught me that if you try and tell him what to do, he may grudgingly partake, but if he is inspired to act, it is a beautiful thing. We need to be inspired to act on the behalf of the environment and our fellow humans. I think everyone has a particular chord that need to be struck. For me, it is the linkage between social and environmental oppression as illustrated by the environmental justice readings. 
To paraphrase the ever eloquent Jack Turner, who fortuitously echoes ideas in Ishmael, the current environmental crisis is one of character, not social or political crisis—and the paradox of this conclusion is that we have yet to determine what a ‘modern character’ is, “and since character is determined by culture, [we face a] crisis of modern culture,” (Turner, 1996). I believe this crisis to be institutionalized patriarchy in a society where the ‘highest good’ is equated with masculinity and masculinity is defined by dominance and control.
Yet, I believe many individuals are hesitant to recognize the connection between ecological, institutional, and interpersonal violence and our western conceptualizations of masculinity. Environmentalists and women’s advocates alike often confront defensiveness when they speak out about the crisis at bay; this is because humans do not see themselves as active participants in pernicious behavior and seek to separate themselves from the ever-insidious blame game often observed within petitions for change. Here I will once again take from Ishmael to reiterate that humans themselves are not the problem, it is the system in which humans operate and the ‘stories’ we enact that perpetuate men’s violence against women and/or ecological destruction.
            Taking from a lecture I attended last fall by feminist advocate Jackson Katz, we must recognize how norms go unquestioned. Katz articulated this in reference to the pervasiveness of men’s violence against women—that we have become to accustomed to hearing about a man committing an act of violence and don’t even pay attention to the gendered nature of the crime. Similarly, we have become desensitized to the atrocities committed against our natural world as a result of cultural norms. We experience the destruction of nature in a similar way we experience a bout of psychological illness—it is something statistically common, almost expected. We take a pill and continue with business at hand without ever stepping back to question a society that profits off pathology or condones the decimation of our mother earth.
Given the depth of philosophical frameworks for viewing nature, I suppose I am now equipped with the language to identify myself as a radical ecologist; as described by Marshall, I am calling for, “a fundamental reorientation in the way we think and act in the world,” founded on (what I would prefer to be) a moderately holistic view of the self as, to contradict biblical ideation as Ishmael does (John 17:6-16), in the world and of the world—not partitioned by Cartisian dualism or deemed superior by reasoning metabolics. We must also begin to shift our views of humans towards a more humanist understanding of individuals as inherently good. Simultaneously, to resonate with eco-feminist demands, we should seek to dissolve entities that promote the four pillars of patriarchy: sexism, racism, class exploitation, and ecological destruction.
I believe that for the human species to move forward, we have to start protesting what is normalized in seeking to build a world where social, political, and environmental justice is possible and in fact, quotidian. Martin Luther King once said, “the arc of the moral universe is long, but it bends towards justice.”  I truly believe our society is capable of change; if anything, to name a few examples in a stupendous stockpile— courses like Nature & Society available at the University of Montana, bestselling books like Ishmael, Walden, Silent Spring, the mere exponential growth of farmers markets, and the coining of phrases such as ‘local is the new global,’ are all testaments to the fact that culture is capable of transformation and indeed is currently undergoing dramatic shifts.
The ‘explaining story’ is one of patriarchal dominance; much of the suffering we cause one another and to the environment is the result of systemic oppression and institutional violence. And while many psychological studies support the notion that violence generalizes, that is the violence we perpetrate against nature can be correlated to intra-personal violence, psychology also claims that violence is a learned behavior. There is hope in that all of our dysfunctional behaviors and worldviews can be unwritten and reconditioned in future generations to come. From Jackson Hole to Missoula, Montana, I sense a new ecological consciousness with which we towards the future, thankful for the current spaces we inhabit, yet invigorated to amass and contribute to a collective awareness that will prove the impetus for a final bend in that arc towards justice for Earth’s community.

References- (beyond course readings)
Pergamon, John. Address of Metropolitan John of Pergamon at the Sixth Ecological Symposium on the Amazon River, "Humanity and Nature: Learning from the Indigenous" Accessed May 7, 2013 http://www.patriarchate.org/documents/humanity-and-nature

Turner, Jack. (1996). The Abstract Wild. University of Arizona Press.

****ask me for the references to class texts if you are curious!!!

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

White Girl Troubles


 
It’s my destiny,
The miracle of death
Rests in me

Capital strings
Split my carbon atoms
From their nascent
Bliss

No wonder I feel
Insignificant—
Bleating the same damn
Cry for a victim-voice
With doey
(I’s)

Peace bitches,
I won’t be a lamb
Shuttled by dogs, gleaned
For wool—worth
Defined by a society
Who hates
Me